I felt that…one decision away from a totally different life. It’s amazing how true this statement can be. One decision, totally different life. I will admit I did struggle with my sobriety in the beginning, the first couple months were crazy I was rebuilding a life without ‘using’ in a life that was centered on ‘using.’ In the beginning I really didn’t think I could manage staying sober for 24 hours, each day waking up wondering if this was the day that I would finally relapse and finally sign my own death warrant. For someone like me to go back to the hell I escaped, it would be the death of me. I know that. I wont bounce back from relapse, I’m out of options and I’m totally at peace with that because I know I won’t ever go back. My addiction can promise me the world, it can whisper sweetly in my ear that the next time will be different, and you know what? It will be different because I’ll die out there next time. If you’re reading this post, believe what I am saying because it’s real and addiction isn’t your friend, look at your life and know that it will destroy you before it’s done with you. That’s all I got, I hope the person that needed to hear this heard this, get your life back, go home to your family. They love and miss you.
Published by jrweaver0
I'm the guy that lost everything...again. My addiction owned me, I didn't sleep, I didn't eat, I just didn't care about my life. My addiction had pushed me to the very edge of the abyss and was screaming inside my head to just 'let go.' But I learned something that day about me, that 'other' voice that was in the way back of my mind, you know the one that always managed to materialize at the worst moments to mess with our buzz? It was planting seeds in our mind's, it was trying to save us. Well that 'other' voice saved me. At my lowest moment I listened and realized the truth, I'm better than this. I applied to Charleston Drug Court, something that I didn't believe I could graduate, but guess what happened? I graduated in about 15 months with no sanctions. I learned that my past had made me stronger, my addiction couldn't continually use the same manipulation to control me anymore. I have found that Recovery has opened closed doors, I got my life back and have found peace, and I want to help the world find that same beautiful peace. That's the mission of recovery-revolution.org, to help addicts find their way back. We Do Recover, I'm living proof. View more posts